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Quote: Originally posted by romany on 13/1/2009

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I was just about to email Ian and Steve to see if you were ok Graham not seen many posts from you for a while

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 Sorry to hear that graham. Angry with you for getting back on the smokes but fully understand coming up to 9 years I have been of them, hell of an argument with Marie newyears eve cause after all this time suddenly really craved a fag and was asking around the friends for one.

 She managed to stop me as usual My probs are minor compared to yours mainly some of the must have drugs are starting to effect things so am having to be experimented on to get right dosage of newer types.

Glad to hear the little ones are multiplying and fit gives you somat to look forward to and the most important thing is we are both still around to moan about things 

Thanks Rex and Romany, Hope all goes well with the treatment Rex, it is no fun having to wait on ops etc and less fun having to cope with the emotions of having serious problems with health, shame about the tenting as I know it has always been your prefered method of camping but I hope that the trailer tent in some way keeps the feeling of sleeping under canvas, look after yourself and try to stay positive (-; (pot kettle and black lol! )

I was probably the most angry at myself when I went back on the cigs Romany, certainly played havoc with my emotions as I started to battle with my wits as to how dissapointed mum would have been in me and I know for fact my dad was very annoyed and has been like a conscience with his comments about stopping again. I will get there, if only because I feel so guilty at wasting not only my time and money but the efforts of all the health care staff who are continually trying to keep me alive, Afraid I wasn't so lucky when the craving hit, and one of my friends did give me a fag, amazing how one can get you hooked again so quickly, something I will not repeat as I am now up to the no smoking date of my treatment.

Like you I am now being used to try out newer drugs as the long term use of others wears brings its own problems, I don't mind really as I said to the doc if they work for me then that is good, if they help others then that is great! Not the first time I have been used in trials and probably not the last, at least it does make us feel that something positive can come from our wee problems.

Like you I will try to keep om moaning about things and hoefully one day will be bouncing the great grand kids on my knee! The baby's certainly help keep me on an even keel, even when they are crying a the house down, funyy how the noise can be a welcome respite from the constant pounding of the head!

Keep smiling and the world will wonder what you find so humorous, love to kep them guessing! lol