We are currently sat at home instead of at Kingsbury water park. The clutch on our smax failed on the way to collect the van from storage! We had to be rescued from a busy roundabout and towed to a garage! So we are missing our chill out weekend and will have to find at least £500 for a new clutch. Campsite were great and we have rebooked for a weekend in may so deposit not lost. Has made me realise how much I enjoy relaxing on the van. Don't think it is the same trying to relax at home somehow. 😭
We were meant to be away over Easter in our van but I have been so poorly over the last few weeks I couldn't even contemplate it and spent the whole Easter weekend in bed. I didn't move and finally saw the emergency GP on easter Monday. Not nice. Feeling much better now but Easter is gone and so was my opportunity for a long weekend.
I've cancelled all my holidays this year, just cannot face the thought if holidaying and enjoying myself without my lovely boy. Even going to the van in storage upsets me greatly being honest
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So sorry fife-bloke.It is very early days so just take everything a step at a time.
I didn't lose a child but I lost my husband in a car accident when he was only thirty eight. We had a caravan and the first time I went into it after he died I just couldn't stop crying. I had to sell it.Too many happy memories of our time with the children together.
I did buy another one later when the time felt right.In the meantime I gradually picked up and began to live again.
You too will get there but you have to give yourself time to grieve but at the same time trying to live a normal life for the sake of your other children.Try to book a holiday somewhere you haven't been before without the caravan. Even though you don't feel like it now it would probably benefit all the family to get away.It won't be easy but it might help.
Path I never knew about your husband I'm so sorry, I actually feel really selfish now, as all I have thought about recently has been my Billy and my own emotions.
That's a great idea about going somewhere new I will look into that, the other kids were really upset when I cancelled the caravan holidays as well as wales and Majorca too.
God bless
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Fife-bloke, no-one is going to think you selfish with all you are going through.
The end of this month is the one year anniversary of the death of my 19 year old nephew from a stupid prank that went wrong. We have all been down that bottomless pit. The one where even taking a breathe is too painful. I found, like Path suggests, that actually going somewhere I had never been before really did lift that pressure off my chest and let me take a breathe. It doesn't last, but it was good while it was happening. I didn't have to make the decision to go away, I was in no place to make such a choice, it was a work thing.
Keeping you all in my thoughts.
------------- Started with a motorbike and tent.......my gallery, my life.
It was many years ago and time has moved on fife-bloke but memories and love always stay.You are at the beginning of the journey I have had and you are definitely not being selfish and your thoughts will of course be with little Billy and always will be but in time you will laugh again and remember all the happy times.
Fife Bloke, I am so sorry to read your posts. I can't begin to imagine how you are feeling at the moment. You are certainly not being selfish. You will need to go through a lot of different stages of grieving. I was really looking forward to a few days away because I have lost three elderly relatives over the winter so am feeling sad but not traumatised as you and your family must be. I hope you find a way to have a holiday this year and that in time you will remember the happy times with Billy on the caravan.